Tuesday, November 30, 2004
baby im sorry.
till now, you haven call.
im worried.
i miss you alot dear.
please stay right here with me and dont go anywhere else.
baby im in pain, will you come home and heal this pain tonight?
i want to see youre name on the caller id now!
mummy's coming home already. AH!!
i wish upon a star, wanna be right where you are. ) :
you set my world on fire, baby ive got a crush on you.
im attracted to you.
; stick with you
maybe i didnt love you as much as i should be.
im sorry, gf.
i love you, a lot a lot.
believe me please?
dont compare.
i love you so.
i cant live without you, ure love.
-hugs baby tight.
; stick with you
shall stop wasting my precious time on people like THEM.
my dear jace, please cheer up.
my dear gf, don't think so much. i love you.
dont wanna try no more. ) :
i miss you so. : (
; stick with you
Sunday, November 28, 2004
okay, this is specially for people who just can't mind their own business.
TO : you left me.
come on lah ass. you dont know the story, just shut the fuck up. get the truth right before u come spitting ure nonsense to me. look at urself before saying me, have a little pride in urself please. everyone is special and unique in their own ways. but i guess, for YOU, we can forget abt SPECIAL AND UNIQUE. (: and yess, coward, YOU'RE.
poor you. you got the name 'you left me' im feel sad for you dear! but im happy for me. ive got the name 'glynis' i bet ure fucking jealous over me. dont be sad. and yes, keep ure face at home k? i dont wish to see it!
To: comments
seriously speaking, if you are human being, who wouldn't be upset after they broke up right? i mean, maybe you don't know because you haven't been in any relationship and maybe because someone would find it disgraceful to have a stead called "comments". i don't need someone like you to find me kelian. i'm not. know why? at least i have a NAME, a FACE, and a proper life. and of course, people to love me for who i am. sigh. you'd better take good care alright? erm, go get yourself registered for a citizenship in singapore. [=
a word of advice for you guys out there who wants to diss me.
seriously speaking, i'm not pissed off because i actually find it amusing. and i'm telling you off because i'd rather you do something meaningful than waste your time doing these. it will save me a lot of time. i have people around to care and stand up for me. who knows? all these might be the doings of ONE SINGLE person. haha, no life. i'm not affected because i'm not who you think i am. if you don't know me well enough, let alone know me, don't judge me.
; stick with you
baby, now ure mine and only mine. :D
at baby's hse now. (:
i realise i cant stop smiling.
opps. =x
well well. (:
im all wet.
thanks to the sudden rain. =\
if you could give me smth, all i want was ure sufferings.
nothing else.
i rather the person who's suffering is me, than you.
`because i love you
i love to see the happier you. (:
; stick with you
Saturday, November 27, 2004
im upset.
very upset.
):
pick me up now, i need you so badly!
; stick with you
Friday, November 26, 2004
baby im sorry.
im sorry about everything. =x
i know those feelings are true.
those are frm the bottom of ure heart. :D
i love you :)
jus hang up on the phone with buddy.
now with baby. :D
i miss you fucking much.
went to buy bks ytd with baby.
she offered to help.
my arms and shoudlers hurts alot.
thanks to those sec2 bks agatha wanted.
she promised to rub them for me. :D
yawns. im tired. -.-
finally, my comp is back to normal.
can listen to songs alrdy.
at least now, mornings wldnt be boring without phone calls.
guess i'll be meeting baby ltr.
gonna go for long bus trips.
hahahaha.
spore is getting boring lahs. ):
`later
; stick with you
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Haha. Hello baby. Here to invade just a little bit.
Don't really know what to say here cos I've already said it all to you.
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do
I'm too lost in you
Love you. >.<
; stick with you
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
now, i dont hafta crave for love,
someone was there to love me all along.
i jus didnt seem to see her arnd.
till yesterday, everythg starts to change! (:
whee.
everythg starts changin now. ((:
you'll always be my baby boy.
yeah babyy, i love you.
im really happy.
haf been smiling since 11.45pm last night all the way till 5.30am.
i love that boy of mine. /muacks!
i love the look into ure eyes with that smile that melts my weak heart. :D:D
dont bother to ask me who.
cos i wldnt say.
i guesss the happy glynis is back.
she love this song. ((:
A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and
I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when
I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and
I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as
the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but
I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but
your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and
I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but
your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but
your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and
I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but
your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
I’m here without you baby but
your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and
I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but
your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it’s only you and me
im happy to haf you here with me by my side.
never will i leave, never will i let go.
PLEASE dont treat me like the way she did.
; stick with you
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
i wouldn't wanna treat anyone else so
nice like what i did to you anymore.
what did i get in the end?
i was at the losing end, i got taken advantage. ):
that wasn't what i thought abt you.
i knew i loved you before i met you. ):
arghs. the comp aint treating me nice.
bad comp. hmph.
woke up not long ago.
slept at 2 ytd.
considered as early.
((: hang up with kwai earlier cos she aint feeling well, STILL
and she refused to go to the doc's! ughhh.
was playing the ps while talking.
hahaha. kwai wanted her name to be in, so i told zell to put 'kwai' inside.
i didnt told her the spelling, i jus said KWAI.
she entered the name as KUAI.
i told kwai, she said this,:" eh, ure sister frm china ah? my name not kuai zi de kuai lah!" that sentence that me laugh my ass off the bed. hahaha.
i wanna watch shutter. (:
promised kwai im gonna watch it with her. :D
i wonder if fri's clique outing everyone can make it.
i desperately want everyone to go. :D
all must go. nette, qiaolin, sarah and me.
the last outing was on the 8.
and qiaolin went off after that.
its not a proper outing.
i don’t care! HMPH.
last paper for buddy alrdy. (:
trying to look for jobs for her as well as kwai.
both haf been looking for a mth plus, but none accepted?
tsktsk, poor thingg. shall be an angel and help them. (:
gonna start working soon.
i need cash for x'mas pres and outings.
((: gonna dig out all my money and start shopping!
no more window shopping! :D:D
i cant prolly buy for everyone!
shall see.
shall see how ppl treat me. -winks.
i know im mean. ):
shall work
a lil harder and more overtimeS.
those days are near. ))):
nvm, for the sake of the chalet and pres!
(thou its not worth it, but im having fun, SO?)
starhub must be cheating my money, AGAIN.
they haven send out the bill yet.
maybe its too low that’s why.
hehs. i didnt misuse my phone this mth!
great achievement! :D:D
uh, i lost my ezlink again. ):
gonna make a new one today, i guess.
sighh, its time to waste money. TSK.
how careless of me. -slaps
mum saw those lines.
She asked what happened.
I said fell down. =x
Hahaha. But she didn’t really believe lah
So yep. ):
i left my blog with a song and i cant get to hear it.
need ta get someone to fix it.
ughhh. and mum arranged it on thurs.
she knows i cant wait. ARGHS.
`later!
you knew, once you take it away,
i would love you now and forever.
but, you left me alone, shattered.
i fell in love with a heartbreaker.
maybe i didn’t give you as much love as i should. ):
you were craving for more, but i ignored.
i adored you but i was WRONG. ):
; stick with you
Monday, November 22, 2004
you gave me love ; now im craving for more.
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever been in love?
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart?
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever...?
Oh
Have you ever found the one
You dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there?
And all you can do is wait
For the day when they will care
Have you ever loved sombody?
[So much]
So much
[Makes you cry]
Makes you wanna break down and cry
[Somethin' so bad]
So, so bad
[Sleep at night]
Have you ever tried to find the words but the don't
[Come out right]
Oh, have you ever?
Have you ever, ever, ever...?
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby?
What do I gotta say to get to your heart?
To make you understand
How I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cause baby I can't sleep
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you (have you...have you ever needed)ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever, ever, ever...?
Oh, have you ever...?
if i say that i loved you, will you say you feel the same way too?
; stick with you
wells, i guess i wont stand another chance.
hmmm, kwai fell sick alrdy.
poor boy. (:
both sick and troubled.
like me, i was jus trying to put up an act with mask.
the sad face hides behind the happy mask. (:
i know i cant face reality.
but i have to.
well, like what i told kwai.
being single isnt a bad thing.
at least, im happy.
i know im not happy since the day she left with her.
i had never once said, : the happy glynis is back.
she will never be back.
the happy nique is back.
when will mine be back?
buddy asked who i wished to talk to now.
i said, god, my heart, her heart, buddy and kwai.
god is always with me.
my heart is whether i can face the reality if not, she cant help.
buddy dont know her and no intention to know her, cant help.
leave it all to fate if i wanna talk to buddy and kwai. (:
both buddy and kwai has been helpin me quite alot this few days.
comforting, cheering me up, putting that smile back into my face.
ppl like them are hard to find now.
i gotta learn to appreciate.
both knows me inside out, outside in.
kwai and i are like clique.
buddy and i are sweet-tongueD.
hahahaha.
i love them as much as i love the rest.
thanks to all those who were there when i needed them.
thanks for the comforting. (:
everyone deserves a big hug frm me. *BIG BEAR HUG
clique : ALL OUT THIS FRI. i dont care. u are suppose to bring the poor grrl here out! she's dying of boredom! (: peii wo qu sen sen xin :D:D msg me okayys? (:
carol : sweetie, thanks for being there whenever i needed someone.
and u silly, u didnt reply my msg. HMPH. haha. okays. u tkc. I LOVE YOU!
eslynn : i hope ure moving on well! (: tkc! I LOVE YOU!
kwai : i didnt know it made ure heart melt. if i do, im gonna smile more. ((: ure's made me melt too. (: love ya!
buddy : i didnt know those words made u smile from e stress.
i hope i really did kiss those exam blues away.
think abt those msges i sent you that night when ure depressed.
wells, im jus a call or a msg away yahs?
; stick with you
Friday, November 19, 2004
to some bitch. (:
sometimes i really wonder if ure a bung or some passives
maybe ure a bung. but sissy and nvr will u haf another gf.
OU, thats sad! pity you. -pukes.
thanks for twisting and turning the whole story.
my day was so perfect.
but now, u ruined it.
ure horoured, aint you BITCH?
bet ure. (: so gayish and sissy and bitchy.
i suggest u remain as a passive or a str8.
jus stay as a NERD like who u are now.
ure supose to study, and not bitchin ard.
tsktsk, naughty lil girl.
ah, nono, naughty gayish sissy bitch.
u shld be some mummy's girl instead too. (:
that suits you lahh!
i really wonder how u can become some bungs.
like what others said, CMI.
(in case u dont know what it means, cannot make it.)
ofcos, i admit that i agree!
i dont twist and turn the story to make
it sound like "no, dont scold me! im innocent!"
if ure some kinda bung, u wld apologise
even if its not ure fault.
that jus shows that u dont suit to be one. :D:D
bungs always give in to passives no matter what happenes.
but you, instead of doing that.
you said. "ure also a bitch. happy bitching."
chlidish and brainless thinking.
and u call urself a bung.
FORGET IT LAH.
i suggest u stay as who u are when ure mum gave birth to you.
all u know is "WHERE IS MY AH GIRRL?!"
so now u think ppl like you ah?
i hate that face of ure's.
keep it at home. i dont wanna see it.
sorry people.
ignore what i said there. ((:
jus some lame craps for a bitch. yep.
; stick with you
guess im feeling broken inside. ):
talked to her on the phone last night till arnd 2
she's sick and alone at home.
her parents went to canda.
that silly jus refuse to boil water.
-shakes head
she's meetin her gf tmr.
poor them. didnt meet up for so long.
as we chatted along, i realised smth really strange.
we both started to look back :
the first day we met,
the first movie tgt,
the first time she sent me home,
the first time she hugged me,
the first kiss she gave,
the first time we held hands. n etc.
and yes, we had the usual questionaire! ((:
that was what she called as TRUTH game.
hahahaha. silly girl.
i really hope everythg u said was the truth, i trust u.
i dont blame u for the brk up.
why shld i?
feelings come and go, in and out.
i admit, i dont deny that i was really upset, disappointed and a lil angry with u.
but after some brainwashin, i thought the other way.
so yah, no worries.
i finally gotta understand the plenty reasons for the brk up.
thanks. (: thanks for everythg.
sweet memories are meant to be kept in my heart.
never will i forget, never will they leave my mind for a sec.
maybe becos of hidin too much stuffs btwn each other made us tear apart.
that's why i kept tellin her, never keep anythin frm ure gf.
jus hopin she'll understand. ((:
she claims that she's a matured and big girl now.
which i think i shld think abt it.
but well, since this is so, i hope she can think like wise.
she claims im the mature and silly girl. (:
hahaha. which i agree lahh.
silly and stupid.
thats for me.):
afterall, we'll still the best of fwens.
i told her id be here whenever she needs someone.
i dont wanna make her feel the way i felt.
being hurt, alone, lonely, sad, abandoned and
not a single soul was there for me when plenty promised to.
its hurting and painful to the heart. ): i hate empty promises.
maybe i aint the good looking gf u wanted,
maybe i aint that sexaye lil thing u wished for,
maybe i aint that ideal gf u wanted
maybe i aint that nice nice gf u wanted.
maybe im jus not the right one for you
and the right decision made.
now that u finally found the right one,
all the best to you. (:
long entry for her indeed.
okayy, back yesterdayy.
went out with big one. ((:
she cheered me up, made me smile. (:
that sweetest lil thang!
we cant decide on where to go!
thats bad, aint it?
went ps instead, walked ard.
wanted to watch movie.
shutter. -covers ears, mouth, eyes
its not that i dont dare to watch, i really want to!
but not only the two of us lahh.
i kept telling her she'll regret after the show
for watching with me.
she dont believe.
TSKK.
jace knows what will happen in the cinemas.
she's the only one who knows what goes on whenever i watch horror.
hees. its terrible! -covers eyes!
jace's nice, she wldnt tell the world abt it! :D:D
we did smth really evil when we got so bored.
hahahahaha. i enjoyed lah! thanks! (:
went to haf lunch at long john's
saw sheila! (: didnt say hi thou.
big one paid for it! hahahah.
went home after that. (:
thanks for being there whenever i needed someone
thanks for keeping me accompany thru the day.
thanks for the lunch.
thanks for cheering me up.
thanks for sending me home. ((:
long entry indeed. (:
i love this song!
enjoy. (((:
(VERSE 1)
who needs to feel that way
who needs those words to say
who wants to give their hearts
to watch it fade away.
cuz ive made up my mind
i didnt wanna know,
why should i find a love
that isnt here to stay,
i wasnt waiting until you came along,
and now i need you to tell me where my heart belongs but
(Chorus)
i dont wanna fall in love,
till i fall in love with you
and you showed me what my heart already knew.
i dont wanna fall in love,
till i know the love is true
cuz i need you to feel the way i do,
when i give my heart to you
(VERSE 2)
Ive seen the tears they cried,
when its time for goodbye
i didnt wanna be the one whos asking why
i didnt think that i would ever feel so strong,
but now i know that i was wrong
(Chorus)
i dont wanna fall in love,
till i fall in love with you
and you showed me what my heart already knew.
i dont wanna fall in love,
till i know the love is true
cuz i need you to feel the way i do,
when i give my heart to you
Now i believe it's worth the chance
to find a love that lasts
for all my life
give me a sign so i will always know this love is right.
this love is right..
(chorus) x2
; stick with you
Thursday, November 18, 2004
i agree with buddy.
she's a bitch.
what do u expect frm someone like her.
i realise everytime i mention her name to ppl.
ppl will go "yee, that girl ah. bad impression."
(((((((((((:
well well, jus finished talking to pts.
hang up at 4.45am.
guess her mum came in lah.
hahaha.
kwai, then we dont friend her okayy?
we BLUFF BLUFF friend her lah. (:
hmm, dont think so much le okay?
im sure u both wld get better as days go by.
let her know how u feel instead of keepin it all
and tell her at one shot.
tai da de da ji, ta hui shou bu liao de!
okay, my chinese aint that good either.
-hugs tight. no cry no cry. (:
the way u cry makes me worry abt u. ):
no cry, u knw u sound awful aft crying,
u knw u wld haf blocked nose aft cryin,
so please, no more cries.
i love the way u smile, pls smile more.
we'll go drinkin someday yahs?
nw, pls tkc. i'll call ya ltr to comfirm if we're gg out!
ugh, buddy's words woke me up frm dreams
and got me back to reality. ((:
thanks buddy.
silly buddy got amaths paper today.
she has got no confidence in herself.
tsktsk.
wheee.
i love buddy and buddy loves me.
she sent me her photo! (:
awww, she knows me best.
might be gg over t her hse to play someday.
everytime ive got the inspiration to blog,
ive got no time.
when ive got the time,
inspiration GONE. ):
TSKTSK.
towning with kwai ltr.
wheee. daddy's nice today.
buyin the photoshop program! ((:
well well, gtg nw.
like u, silly and stupid, i was deceived by the wrappingg.
; stick with you
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
life aint getting any much better.
she finally decide to talk to me.
well, ive decided to move on lah. REALLY.
i dont wanna be the one on the losing end.
i told eslynn, plenty out there might be waitin for her.
i told her to MOVE on. she agreed. sweet lil girl. (:
i wanna leave my life as it is now.
thou i need her fucking alot.
i jus want life to get better for me.
kwai was there whenever i needed someone.
she's nice.
i told her i wanna move out.
she asked where.
i said nowhere.
she told me to go over to her place.
we talked on the phone almost every night.
hahaha. she cheered me up.
buddy is nice.
msged her today.
everythg seemed to be back in time again.
we talked like the way we used to.
and i love her the way she is.
and i'll always do.
=]
im sorry if i disappoint u.
i really love you.
; stick with you
Saturday, November 13, 2004
i tried my best.
i tried to keep myself occupied with things.
i tried not to think of you.
i tried to keep away frm those penknifes.
but i failed.
nique is singing in the phone.
thanks alot, nique.
she cheered me up. (:
i do
not love you.
i do
not miss you.
i do
not need you.
i do
not want you.
i do
not adore you.
im gna move on.
nique says, pick urself up once agn and MOVE.
i agreed. (: i really haf to.
nique sending me songs.
sad ones.
oh yah, oh yes.
thanks for being there when i really needed someone!
ure so loved by me. (:
thankew, nique!
; stick with you
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
i knew what that 16 lines and a zero meant.
sorry cant help.
`so much for my happy ending.
happy birthday to my dearest baobeii! (:
ure finally a year older!
pls start to grow, grow, grow!
haha, really happy to be in the same class agn next yr!
nw, tkc and all the best to the both of you! ((:
that couple, been thru plentyee of pain.
but both are willing parties.
both willing to give in, really patience ppl.
how i wish we could be like them.
asked nique to call me in the morning.
went on crying with her on the phone.
that silly girl, she cant get to any slp.
kept wakin up and cry. TSKTSK.
maybe everythg jus wasnt meant to be.
and finally, she comforted both herself and me.
decided not to think too much.
ofcos, she started to get all over CRAZY.
and im happy abt that. (: I LOVE!
pts suddenly called me! (:
how sweet of her! haha!
she called to ask if everythg's okayy.
cos she read my blog.
*pts, thanks for the advise and comforting.
ure jus so sweet to call suddenly.
was shocked. xD
pls tk good care of urself!
outing soon okayys? (:
LOVE YOU ALOT LAH!
went out with clique includin persis and veron ytd.
took neos. (persis didnt tk!)
watched princess diaries II.
qiaolin didnt watched.
she went to celebrate her anni with keith. (:
*yes qiaolin, i know, 8mths. =D
eunice n the rest called to say they are coming.
-.- mood started to change, ofcox.
dont know what kinda fwens she'll bring.
qiaolin waited for them as she's not gg in for movies.
keith called to say he'll mit qiaolin at mrt station at 345.
eunice was late, very late.
so qiaolin went off first.
aft that, nette and me went in.
we jus watched the show like WHOA!
right in the middle of the story.
ive got no mood to watch either.
spent half the time thinkin, smsin and cryin.
she decided to ignore me, she cut herself.
my body. mind and soul are not tgt.
sighh.
was trembling cold in there.
haha! we're like shiverin away! (:
immediately went to the basement toilet.
hide in there for awhile.
eunice waited for us outside.
took train, the rest went hougang ave3.
i went home.
went to aunt's place for dinner aft that.
played ard, went home.
going out today, i guess.
mitin josh ltr.
so tired.yawns.
she jio me go the bbq.
but a few i-dont-wanna-see-ppl are gna be there.
she told me plenty unknown things too. hehs.
she told me the same thing what nette told me. (:
now, its finally the true.
unlike some cuties out there.
act until like WHOA!
"the both of u brk alrdy mehs?
really?! dont be sad kays?
cannot cry k?"
wah, big show, big movement.
thanks ah, stinky bitch!
my heart is too numb to feel the pain.
my heart is jus so hard.
dont say we could jus be fwens when u knw u cant bring urself to.
im sick and tired.
maybe 40000 cuts will satisfy you.
well, i promised i'll still be there for you, hao ma?
we'll still go HAHAHA-ing at things which used to make us laugh.
last night, when i asked u if u both are attached.
u said no.
ure blog said. "you haf got no choice but to be mine."
was happy for u, ofcos. (:
i need time to heal.
does saying sorry makes u feel better?
no, it didnt at all.
the whole thg didnt made u feel guilty.
u did this all lying, not becos u want no hurt.
was becos u dont wanna be on the losing end.
tk a knife and stab me!!!
okayy, since everythg's cleared nw, im happier. (:
so, no more sorrys. ;)
and no more LIES.
`maybe it was u that made me change my mind.
`maybe it was u that made me realise she wasnt the right one.
`maybe it was u that made me realise ure the right one standing before me.
; stick with you
Monday, November 08, 2004
u dont know how much im missing you right nw.
i want you to be right here with me again,
jus like.. before.
7.33 am. i couldn't get to slp.
i tot i could sleep a lil more today.
i miss her alot.
i wonder how life could be without having you ard?
i guess, it couldnt be any better.
jus talk to her on phone last night.
hang up cos her buddy called, crying.
i cldnt get to slp.
tears started flowing.
my mind was in a total blank,
realizing that this time,
she's gone, now and forever.
i cried my life to slp.
you dont know how heartachin that few words could be.
i need a hearttoheart talk.
i need a big hug.
i need a shoulder to lead on and cry.
i need to cry my heart out.
i need someone to talk sense to me.
NOW.
im feeling uneasy inside.
every night i prayed, on bented knees,
the corner close to my bed,
that u'll always be my everything, my boo*
every night i wake up, i realised ure no longer mine.
ive got no one else to turn to this time.
if sayin as many iloveyou could bring you back,
i'll say till my lips went dried and no more voice.
and i'll continue to say till ure back right here with me.
ure leaving.
LEAVING.
i dont know what else to do.
cant go on without loving you.
i couldnt smile like before.
i want to find back the me.
the cheerful me.
im no longer the cheerful one.
_im the sadistic one
i dont know how to comfort myself.
no one is there for me, when plenty promised to.
at least she has her buddy to talk to.
my buddy is busy with her exams.
sighh, everyone seemed so busy.
no one seem to notice me at all now.
i wish i could be stronger than yesterdayy.
ure my everything, my life was jus YOURS alone.
a breakdown is a sooner or later thing.
i tot we could celebrate ure bday happily.
without thinking what jus happened.
now, i dont think we can.
but as i promised, i wldnt break it.
i dont agree with what ure mum said.
bday comes by every year, nothing special.
if its nothing special, why it happens only ONCE in a year?
it cld haf happen plenty times in a year.
i wanna spend this bday with you, can i? =D
ure the breath of my life in me.
u made my body, mind and soul completed for all time.
now that ure gone, who's gonna complete it?!
constantly, ure on my mind.
i think abt u all of the time.
words are hard to say,
i miss u, i knew i wld feel this way without you.
everything means nothing to me,
it i aint got you.
i dont know how u can be driving me so crazy over you!
when ure gone, and that means.
no more my babyy.
no more kisses frm you.
no more lil surprises frm you.
no more anni with you.
no more msgin me.
no more big, warm, tight hugs frm you.
no more coaxing me to slp.
no more tapping me to slp.
no more leanin on ure shoulders.
no more holding hands.
no more helpin me tie my hair.
no more iloveyous frm you.
no more sendin me home.
no more expensive phone bills becos i used them to msg you.
no more going to ure hse and play.
no more whisperin sweet nothings to me.
no more long talks on the phone with you.
no more whining frm you.
no more holdin on the ure hand when im scared.
no more love frm you.
so many no more.
my life's gonna change a hell lot.
in the moment, everything can change.
im down, im upset.
i cant be happy anymore.
you can make me whole once again.
i loved the way you looked at me.
i loved the way you tell me you loved me.
i loved the way you whine.
i loved the way you hold my hand.
i loved the way you hug me tight.
i loved the way you kissed me.
i loved the way you went blushing.
i loved the way you asked me to be ure's.
i loved the way you coax me to slp.
i loved the way you tell me sweet nothings before i go to slp.
i loved the way you celebrated anni with me.
i loved the way you smiled at me.
i loved the way you call me baby.
i loved the way you miss me.
i loved the way you talk to me late int he night.
i loved the way you send me home.
i loved the way you kissed my worries away
i loved the way you msged me
i loved the way you tell me ure gonna be my always
i loved the way you are.
i simply love you with all my heart.
and i'll continue to do so.
my love for you never ends, it never change.
think abt the days when im lying in ure arms.
with my head resting on ure chest.
now that ure gona, im here to stay.
when u come back, all i wanna do is to hold u tight and nv let go.
hold you close and look you in the eyes.
just come back and i'll tell you how i feel.
you stole my heart so easily and,
im not gonna tk it backk.
when the stars fall, i lie awake.
i didnt fall asleep.
ure my shooting star!
i wish i could carry that smile of ures in my heart.
i dont know what tmr will bring.
all i want was you.
i gotta keep myself frm breaking down.
someone pls help me out!
it hurts to want everythg and nth at the same time
i want what's ures and i want what's mine
i want you
but im not giving in this time.
im not gonna share you with anyone else.
i'll jus stay SELFISH.
err, long entry indeed.
im jus tryin to let everything i wanna say out.
there're plentyyee more. (:
i'll update them another time i guess. xD
`im on the edge of breaking down.
; stick with you
Thursday, November 04, 2004
i can be a happier girrl.
-cindy said that! (:
hehs.
gg genting this few days.
will be back on saturday night.
cousin's gonna miss me, i know.
she dont sound happy.
HAHAHA.
she jus go. "oie, haf fun lah"
hahaha
BLEAHS xD
WHEE.
goin off soon.
hehs.
not excited abt it.
cos i dont think i'll be havin muchh fun.
i dont like that place anw!
sometimes i really dont know if to believe you or not.
i wonder if u really mean by what u sayy.
but i didnt wanna doubt you.
u told me u mean by every singlie 'ily' u said to me.
thankew. (:
ure missed by me dearly.
thanks for acting like you cared;
and making me feel like i was the only one
; stick with you
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
i wanna be a happier girl.
was 3rd mth ytd.
the day i longed for.
im suppose to feel happy.
but she decided to put an end to it.
nw, its ALL OVER.
few days before,
she was holdin on so tight,
tellin me not to let go.
sayin i cant leave.
I DIDNT CHOOSE TO LEAVE, BUT I STAY.
now, she decided to put an end cos,
; she thinks that i dont appreciate her.
; being with me is so stressed and pressurized.
; she wanna stay single, available.
; she wants to concentrate on her studies.
; she thinks that im a burden in her life.
; she wants to persuade her dream.
; she thinks that i dont treasure her.
; she thinks that i dont cherish the stuffs she gave me
; she thinks i enjoy hurting her.
that was what she thinks.
she didnt wanna tell me.
nique told me.
went to her blog.
saw THAT GIRL taggin her.
seeing her name on the tagboard makes me tear even more.
talked to nique and qiaolin last night.
i envy nique.
she has got the patience.
she waited for 6mths.
she wants to protect her like every other gf do.
but when she realised that she cant tk it, MAJOR BREAKDOWN HAPPENS.
i know how hurting it is.
she lost almost everyone.
why cant she haf a lil more patience?
why cant she speak up?
i know i cant expect her to be like everyone else.
im not askin her to be like nique!
im not suppose to cry.
she worth my tears, im not suppose to cry.
aft losing her, i realised i still need fwens afterall.
nique was there to comfort.
she was the second bungg to hear me cry over the phone.
i caused her scoldings.
Nique, Im sorry!
second, was qiaolin.
she told me plentyyee things to wash my brain.
she knows when i call, smth bad mus haf happened.
i didnt mean to let her worry.
she warned me since the first break up we had,
i refused to listen.
now i realised, she's right all along.
haix, i dont know lah
anw, thanks for being there for me, to qiaolin and nique.
(: LOVE YOU ALL.
`shall update agn another time
`does this r/s matters to you?
you broke me.
; stick with you
